Hey guys!
I been thinking about a lot of things lately, my mind is telling me to stay focus and believe. My heart is telling me to hold on to what you believe no matter what, and pray that he does the same. I can admit I am in love with the man I am seeing at the moment, and I can't wait for the next time I see him. Right now due to my school needs, I am in Knoxville and he remains in Memphis. I haven't seen him since Dec. 22, yes I remember the date. Hopefully I can see him on Valentines Day, that is if I actually come home for the time being. It sucks being in a long distance relationship sometimes, I would like to see him more often than I do. I talk to him every day, damn near all day long, from what my friends tell me. One of my fears is that the long distance thing gets the best of us. I mean I actually like the fact of missing my man, because when I see him there are sparks everywhere, and I cherish every moment. Now Skype helps a lot, but we have only skyped like twice, mainly because I been busy to were it ain't gonna happen no time soon. But it will get the best of me, for the days when conversing don't suffice. Skype will make me angry because I can't touch him or kiss him, OMG I'm getting sad writing this.
It's so funny because I never thought I would even think of him in the ways I do now. He used to be my Lil play brother, and now he has become my lover! I laugh about it so much how we have come a long way. Just think meeting him in a park when I was like 14 and couldn't care less about the boy, would come to this where I am 21 and I actually care about his thoughts. And the fact that he's 2 years younger than me, oh it took me a good minute to get over that. For some reason I actually like the idea of being a cougar and what not, I think it's cute lol. Well I think I'm done ranting. But Does anyone know what great things you can do to keep a relationship intact while you can't see the one you love?
